What should I do with my life?

Alright, so I always am day dreaming an wanting to do these things with my life. But usually that's just a little phase of mine, that I'll only keep with me for a week.


Like one week I'll want to be a fashion designer, one week I'll want to be an interior designer. One week I imagine me being a house wife at home with her children.





I'm always imagining and changing my mind. I can't explain.


But one thing I always will want to be, is a singer. I know most these careers aren't realistic for 'average folks'. But I'm not, average. I can be though.. I probably will be. I'm afraid when I grow up I'll loose my imagination and creativity, 'cause right now, I'm really blessed with that.





Anyways, I'm in a weird situation. I can't finish high school, and I have to drop out. I'm home schooled and can't afford it anymore. And public school is not an option. So I'm pretty much, just, screwed. I could always get my g.e.d., but the things I learn in homeschooling are so completely different from the work they do in public school. Don't ask why, I don't even know why it's so different. But it is, so I'd end up failing that if I even tried. I really don't want to end up like my parents and all the people I'm surrounded by.


I want to be successful and live up to my own expectations, I want to make something of myself. I don't want to have to work at a f*cking mcdonalds or end up cleaning up houses for the rest of my life. It's disgusting people even have to do those things for a living. It's horrible. I don't want that for my life.








I honestly don't even know what to do. Because there isn't much of anything I can even do with my life. It's all pretty much right down the toilette. And it doesn't help that, right now I'm beyond depressed. It's bad. And it seems the only other option, is to just, die.


I am being totally honest right now.. don't mean to go all 'emo' on you. I know I'm young, but oh have I aged. My soul is 1,000 years old. I don't know who I was in my previous life, but it must have been someone really, gifted or some sh*t.





I'm rambling and ranting about nonsense. Sorry. I just don't know what to do with anything, about anything. And my life and situation is much, much more complicated. I only gave you a sentence or two about how f*cked up my life is. What I'm saying now is nothing compared to the real, tragedy.





Annnnyways :|


Does anyone have some good recommendations about what I should do for the future?? Something that I'll love doing, I make a lot of money doing it, but I don't need to go to college for. haha probably impossible. I wanted to be a makeup artist too. But that wont happen.





I am really passionate about singing though. I had one singing lesson, learned nothing. Maybe I should get back into singing lessons, and try to become famous? HAHA. I always wanted to do that since I was a little girl. Sorry I shared this with you all. I just need some ideas and needed to vent, to complete strangers that will most likely end up judging me on things they know nothing about. Yep. Alright, thanks..|||try working somewhere like clothes stores or somewhere to help you earn some money to finish your g.e.d. You don't have to work at mcdonald all your life if you just continue fighting for your dreams by finishing your g.e.d and becoming a singer. hope i helped|||With so many people out of work right now, a lot of them are turning to generate income. I just read an article about how people are making money at home and generating more income than they did at their old jobs. You can check out the article at http://bit.ly/9OSgf.|||Wow im in your same situation. right now i gotta get my g.e.d but now they say you cant even work in mcdonalds with it. Only if i didnt fck up in high school, like i regret soo much things. like i feel wat your going through, n everything is soo down hill for me n i dont know wat to do either. like my life is pointless. everytime i try it gets even worse. like wow i don't feel like trying no more. The only thing i got to do now is turn to god cause thts all i got, even though things are tuff i still have my faith. Your gonna get your calling one day i hope i do too. God bless.|||Well sweetie all I can say is follow your heart, there is nothing wrong with you, even though your not feeling that great right now, your a very special person, I think so and God does to, you are unique and there only one of you in this world, don't be so hard on your self, we do learn so much in our lives and it can be sometimes from our mistakes, it really boils down to the choice we make in our every day lives, I have self motivated books that's helped me to succeed in life, there is one book called Rich Dad Poor Dad, and these book can help to motivate you to be what ever you want, be a boss or an entrepreneur, a lot of people who now are achieving in there lives and are wealthy, did not get Much of an education and flunked out of school at a early age, one of them is Rich Dad Poor Dad, and self motivation, unfortunately, is not taught in schools today, If you would like to talk to me about this further please don't hesitate to email me, my email address is Cecile@gmail.com and also you have so much potential, you have the rest of your life ahead of you, and you are still young, there is so much this world can offer you, its only up to you to make that right path, There are 2 choice we make, the good and the bad, there's not in-between, the choice you make will determine on what holds for you in the future take care of yourself. And I will also pray for you.|||You are very mature and thoughtful .


I shall give you an advice . think of you as if you were in the centre of


universe. You have around you a sky that symbolizes the knowledge of


humanity.


You have only a limited possibility to reach the sky but if you focus and send a very sharp light you may add something new ad give a sense to your life.


Only as ex. : you could give a better form to any object useful or study a hitherto not studied dialect.


And if you cannot understand : let it be !